He is not a wise man who does not grieve for the things which he has not, but rejoices for those which he has. ~ Epictetus
Today, on my 42th birthday, I reflect on my life, my struggles and my triumphs. I have risen from the ashes like a beautiful Phoenix. God threw me many curve balls and with His help, I not only manage to survive but I now thrive due to those life’s challenges.
Now, I’m a joker with thousand balls in the air. Loving the challenge of keeping them in the air while keeping my equilibrium.
Courage and Resilience
As I pause and reflect on this special day, I can’t help but admire these past 42 years of existence. I have overcome some badass shit. My friends and family have often verbalized what courage and resilience I’ve demonstrated through the years. I have never really thought of it that way. I always just thought ‘If God brought me here, He will bring me through it.’ It was as simple as that. No matter what happened in my life, I just kept praying for Him to bring me Strength and Light to guide me through my pain and suffering. Whether it was the loss of my triplets, the abusive relationship, the diagnosis of a mental disorder, the lying cheating husband, the abortion, the abandonment of 3 close friends, being kick out of a circle of friends because of my mental disorder or the rape while I was hospitalized…. no matter what, I have kept my head held high.
Instead of fixating on living a happy life, I prefer focusing on positive optimism. As Vishen Lakhiani explains it: « positive optimism is a stage evolution, you realise as an individual that life is ultimately good and if something goes wrong, you know things will get better. You don’t swell in depression of that moment because you know that ultimately life is good. »
Gratitude
I am so very grateful for the life I have. First and foremost, for my health. I am mentally stable. I lead such a beautiful healthy life. I have my physical and emotional health as well. I am living in equilibrium. To me, that’s the ultimate goal in life is to lead a balanced lifestyle.
I have a family that loves me unconditionally. No matter what, they are there for me. They are a phone call away, they celebrate my victories or are helping me back up on my feet when I fall. They only want the very best for me and I feel their love and support.
I have a career and colleagues that I love. A job that challenges me but also brings me so much joy and accomplishment. I feel valued and appreciated. I never realised how important those were for me.
My small circle of friends, my soul tribe of women that I hand-picked is my rock. These magical souls are in my life to witness my transformation, to help in my personal growth and to enjoy life’s treasures together. I am so grateful for these soul sisters.
I also have a man I love who brings me to a happy place every time I hang out with him. We play, we laugh, we act like children and we love. I’m so privileged to have this relationship showing me how sweet life is.
Cheers
What a beautiful way to start a new chapter for my 43th year on this Earth. I am blessed with love, joy, happiness, friendship, zen and success. Covid-19 was a blessing to me. I was chasing the wrong things. This pause forced me to reflect, realign my own priorities and desires for my life.
À une vie pleine de bonheur et de prospérité; de réaliser de grandes choses et d'avoir beaucoup de succès!
“Qu’on vive vieux pis qu’on en manque jamais ”